Saturday, October 29, 2011
epic
I have always wondered what would happen if everyone in the world just forgave each other of their debt and we started the whole world economy over with a clean slate.
Bluebird in my heart
there's a bluebird in my heart that wants to get out but I'm too tough for him, I say, stay in there, I'm not going to let anybody see you. there's a bluebird in my heart that wants to get out but I pur whiskey on him and inhale cigarette smoke and the whores and the bartenders and the grocery clerks never know that he's in there. there's a bluebird in my heart that wants to get out but I'm too tough for him, I say, stay down, do you want to mess me up? you want to screw up the works? you want to blow my book sales in Europe? there's a bluebird in my heart that wants to get out but I'm too clever, I only let him out at night sometimes when everybody's asleep. I say, I know that you're there, so don't be sad. then I put him back, but he's singing a little in there, I haven't quite let him die and we sleep together like that with our secret pact and it's nice enough to make a man weep, but I don't weep, do you? |
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
Finding Forester
I am doing an exercise from one of my favorite movies, Finding Forester. Forester tells the kid to write and write and write. Do I write for me or for you....That is the discussion I am having at the moment with some friends. There is no point to writing a book if no one reads it....really? I wonder about that. Can you have something so compelling to say that you need to say it even if no one hears? Is it the same with music? Ahhhhh I have to keep writing non-stop.
So today at work I received a 25 dollar bonus. Completely unexpected. I have been getting extreme favor at work over the last few months. It is really strange. I also have gotten an opportunity to work at another kitchen. God is really moving right now...I don't get it.
I am excited to be going back to school. People are asking me if I will use this degree and I have to ask again what does using the degree even mean. The way I see it, my degree influences everything I say, I do, I see, I feel. It influences every thought I have.
A friend is knitting something, but he doesn't know what it is. He just keeps knitting and saying that he will figure out what it is supposed to be when he is done. That is the way I live my life...in the moment. The journey is the life...the reason. I have another friend that gets annoyed by people who say stuff like that. He gets annoyed by a lot of things....especially waiting. He has a destination and pushes everything out of the way to get there. Take for example his waking up habits. He is always in a stance of go go go in the mornings. He says that if he stops he is fall back asleep...so he is always going and going 100 mph. It kind of saddens me. He is always in such a hurry that he can't enjoy himself. I don't know that last time he ever had breakfast ways. Stuff like that really gets to me. I look at the journey and all you see and experience and learn as having as much or more weight than getting the to end goal itself.
15 minutes and I am still writing. Should I stop. I don't know I am really enjoying writing this...speed thoughts. It has been a long time since I spit my thoughts out like this. But alas all good things must come to an end. I have one question with that though...why?
So today at work I received a 25 dollar bonus. Completely unexpected. I have been getting extreme favor at work over the last few months. It is really strange. I also have gotten an opportunity to work at another kitchen. God is really moving right now...I don't get it.
I am excited to be going back to school. People are asking me if I will use this degree and I have to ask again what does using the degree even mean. The way I see it, my degree influences everything I say, I do, I see, I feel. It influences every thought I have.
A friend is knitting something, but he doesn't know what it is. He just keeps knitting and saying that he will figure out what it is supposed to be when he is done. That is the way I live my life...in the moment. The journey is the life...the reason. I have another friend that gets annoyed by people who say stuff like that. He gets annoyed by a lot of things....especially waiting. He has a destination and pushes everything out of the way to get there. Take for example his waking up habits. He is always in a stance of go go go in the mornings. He says that if he stops he is fall back asleep...so he is always going and going 100 mph. It kind of saddens me. He is always in such a hurry that he can't enjoy himself. I don't know that last time he ever had breakfast ways. Stuff like that really gets to me. I look at the journey and all you see and experience and learn as having as much or more weight than getting the to end goal itself.
15 minutes and I am still writing. Should I stop. I don't know I am really enjoying writing this...speed thoughts. It has been a long time since I spit my thoughts out like this. But alas all good things must come to an end. I have one question with that though...why?
Sunday, January 30, 2011
Entrepreneurship of the mind
A few weeks ago while listening to NPR I came across the phrase "entrepreneurship of the mind." While I immediately loved the wording, I wasn't completely sure of it's meaning. However, the last few weeks have brought me to a place where I am living it out...or getting thoughts on how to live it out.
I am a thinker, a dreamer, a philosopher. I am the "idea" guy in the brainstorming meetings. Rarely, if ever am I the one that figures out how to implement the idea. No, I am the one that first gets the idea. I plant the idea in others. I cast the vision.
The other night I went to see a play at the local university. One of the professors wrote the play about his experiences growing up in a Christian home with questions that just wouldn't go away. Eventually he accepted that he was an agnostic. The play was really great look at traditions and holidays. However, I took something else away from the play. I took a sense of empowerment, I was encouraged. I saw how ideas can be communicated through art, specifically theater.
What is the role of the artist in culture? That answer has always been changing, evolving, being challenged and redefined. In my opinion the true role of art isn't merely to provide entertainment, but to challenge our world and the society which we have created. Society is also evolving, and it is the artists that provide a unique perspective on where we are heading.
Being a recent college graduate people are always asking how I am "using" my degree. Some, in asking the questions take for granted that I am one of those that have bought into the idea that you to college to get trained for a particular field and then spend all your energy getting paid from that field to support whatever lifestyle you are wanting to live. Unfortunately (or fortunately depending on the perspective) I have not bought into that system. I haven't dismissed it, I don't even know if I want to. All I know is that like the play I saw the other night I too have plaguing questions that will not go away. And like in the play, no one is allowing me to voice my questions or lack of answers.
Someone recently told me to find what I enjoy and figure out how to make money doing that. It's hard when one enjoys thinking. Seriously, thinking and exploring life's deep questions is what I find fun and what I do in my free time. I love to think. That is one leading reason I pursued a theology degree, because at some point when we start to ask questions "God" will come up. I also have a psych degree for similar reasons. I want to understand why we do what we do. Thoughts are never isolated from the world around us. Thoughts are meant to be lived in the flesh. That is where psych comes into the conversation. So if I want to think, I need to figure out a way to allow those thoughts to generate income.
Ahhhh the artist's plight.
I believe that I have had the thought on how to make money by thinking. I will share my thoughts through film. Just like the professor wrote his play to communicate his questions, I will share my thoughts on the social absurdities and put them in film for others to reflect on.
I also heard another saying recently, "all good things will get criticized." So bring on the criticism.
I am a thinker, a dreamer, a philosopher. I am the "idea" guy in the brainstorming meetings. Rarely, if ever am I the one that figures out how to implement the idea. No, I am the one that first gets the idea. I plant the idea in others. I cast the vision.
The other night I went to see a play at the local university. One of the professors wrote the play about his experiences growing up in a Christian home with questions that just wouldn't go away. Eventually he accepted that he was an agnostic. The play was really great look at traditions and holidays. However, I took something else away from the play. I took a sense of empowerment, I was encouraged. I saw how ideas can be communicated through art, specifically theater.
What is the role of the artist in culture? That answer has always been changing, evolving, being challenged and redefined. In my opinion the true role of art isn't merely to provide entertainment, but to challenge our world and the society which we have created. Society is also evolving, and it is the artists that provide a unique perspective on where we are heading.
Being a recent college graduate people are always asking how I am "using" my degree. Some, in asking the questions take for granted that I am one of those that have bought into the idea that you to college to get trained for a particular field and then spend all your energy getting paid from that field to support whatever lifestyle you are wanting to live. Unfortunately (or fortunately depending on the perspective) I have not bought into that system. I haven't dismissed it, I don't even know if I want to. All I know is that like the play I saw the other night I too have plaguing questions that will not go away. And like in the play, no one is allowing me to voice my questions or lack of answers.
Someone recently told me to find what I enjoy and figure out how to make money doing that. It's hard when one enjoys thinking. Seriously, thinking and exploring life's deep questions is what I find fun and what I do in my free time. I love to think. That is one leading reason I pursued a theology degree, because at some point when we start to ask questions "God" will come up. I also have a psych degree for similar reasons. I want to understand why we do what we do. Thoughts are never isolated from the world around us. Thoughts are meant to be lived in the flesh. That is where psych comes into the conversation. So if I want to think, I need to figure out a way to allow those thoughts to generate income.
Ahhhh the artist's plight.
I believe that I have had the thought on how to make money by thinking. I will share my thoughts through film. Just like the professor wrote his play to communicate his questions, I will share my thoughts on the social absurdities and put them in film for others to reflect on.
I also heard another saying recently, "all good things will get criticized." So bring on the criticism.
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