Nuwanda

So I am watching The Dead Poets Society, and as always when I watch this movie, I am feeling something inside me rise up. I am feeling invigorating, alive. I want to take over the world!....just kidding. But really I feeling inspired to do something daring, something thrilling. I want to seize the day!

The question remains of what to do. What awaits around the next corner? I honestly don't know. I feel empowered, yet have no idea what possibly to do with my life. Stand on a desk maybe???? So I just did....really. I need to gain a new perspective on life, my life. I pray that my eyes would open for the needs that around me. I pray that I would be moved to reach out to help, even if it be in the smallest way. I cannot be scared of failure anymore.

Sunday I awoke to "Uncle Salty" by Aerosmith playing on the radio. The song ends on the refrain "Oh It's a sunny day outside my window" repeated over and over. That is not the thing one wants to hear at noon when they just started working 3rd shift. I rolled over and caught a glimpse of the day that awaited me outside my window. To me right then that line meant more to me than anything I heard in a long time. Besides the obvious sunny day that was beyond my window, was another meaning, a deeper meaning, that being a better life.

The last 6 months have been spent wallowing about, feeling completely sorry for myself. Bitterness, hatred, confusion, and a slew of other emotions clouded my vision of things. I was completely self consumed to the point of complete exhaustion, and breakdown. At the front of this was fear of not having a job. Well, that song playing and laying in bed praying, along with some other things that God has been showing me, I knew what I had to do. I have to seize the day. So I did. I quit my job.

Now on to what is next........