drifter

I am a drifter out on an a dead end road
Trying to find my way back......home?

I left home when I was 18 never to return. Holidays were spent with the grandparents, not at the place I grew up. The few weekends I did visit were pure hell. During one fight my mom told me she didn't want me there for the summer so I figured I wouldn't burden her anymore than I already did. 18 years was long enough. Maybe too long.

I hate it when people ask where I am from. I honestly don't know how to answer. I really don't know what they are asking. I grew up in Plainwell, MI. Though I don't remember much if any of living there. That was 10 years ago, but it might as well have been 200 and me reading it from a text book than to recall anything from my memory. So, it follows that I feel weird giving Plainwell as an answer to where I am from. I haven't lived there in over 10 years. I have lived more time not in Plainwell than in Plainwell, as I moved there when I was 8. When I lived out of state for the time I did, saying I was from Michigan suficed. Now that I am back I don't know what to say.

I added it up one time and I think I have moved something like 20 times in the last 10 years. The place I have lived the longest has been Lansing. So I guess I am from here. But then it gets complicated because I just moved back here. No reason like family or anything. Family was the last reason I waned to move back. I just felt like I had to, so here I am.

I am a drifter that's for sure. Don't really know how or why. Sometimes I hate it. Really hate it. Other times it fits me. I have no family, I gave up on them a long time ago. I have yet to start my own family, sometimes wonder if I ever will. I like to travel, I like the open road. After watching "Into the Wild", I am thinking of spending a summer hitching rides across this beautiful land that some take claim to as the States. I would love to follow in Chris' footsteps and travel up to Alaska. Maybe even spend a night in the magic bus. But thanks to fear, and global bullying, I need a piece of paper that says I am a citizen of America. I am not though. I gave up on America last July 4th, my personal independence day.